I am finding that writing a blog can be a very confrontational process. It is causing me to observe how my thought process works in a much deeper way. Who am I and what is important to me? Why can’t I say something that does not make sense to everyone who reads it. So what if I piss people off?
One of issues that comes up for me around writing this blog:
Why would anyone listen to me? These thoughts have me question how I feel about others who step out and own their voice and power. EFT [Emotional Freedom Technique] teachers Jessica Ortner and Carol Tuttle brought this idea to mind during the 2011 Tapping Summit [link here]. Much of that Summit made it clear how our thoughts about others effect us very personally. An example is disliking wealthy people and the subconscious fear that keeps us from attaining wealth due to not wanting others to feel that disdain for us. BTW, the definition for wealth is relative.
When I was 14 I asked my ballet teacher at the time, Irene Fokine [link here], a really tough talking, cigarette smoking, task master kind of individual, if she thought I had the talent to be a professional dancer. Her answer is one that I have never forgotten: ” If you have to ask, don’t bother trying”. Not the kindest words to speak to an impressionable adolescent, but over the years has helped me cut to the chase in making decisions.
Recognizing that I do not completely know who I am is one of the scariest and best thing that has ever happened to me.