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My mother, Agnes Leck, died in 1994. Not long after, I found a copy of a poem in a box of cherished items that she stowed in a drawer. Finding this poem has helped me  to have a deeper understanding of my mother, myself and our relationship. Sometimes we have  insights about people after they are gone that were not possible before. For me this has, at times, felt like a very sad gift.  It has taught me many things. One is that my  parents were so very human. Another, is about the roles we as a society assign to ourselves and others. They can be  very one dimensional and limit how we see our parents. It feels like a big part of my spiritual path is to question these roles in order to open my heart and mind.

friendship a Poem by Lucille Paisner  [year unknown]. You can click on the link or just read it below.

I knew her for many years

All my life

Even before I could talk

But I was hard on her

I made demands:

Be smarter, be prettier, don’t make mistakes

You are not good enough

And my friend was sad

She tried and tried,but there was no pleasing me

As I  grew older

As time went on

I cane to realize that my friend was good enough

I then told her that:

She is smart, she is beautiful, she is entitled to make mistakes

So we have become very good friends

I know I have a friend for life

That friend is myself

Louise Paisner

If anyone has any information about Lucille Paisner I would be really interested in hearing back.



Author: notyourrawmama

At the age of ten I distinctly remember questioning the premise that illness just happens to us. The idea that every action has a reaction became a clear reason to doubt that I could not personally impact my own health. In my very early twenties I was introduced to the Macrobiotic Philosophy of Life and assisted a Macrobiotic Counselor in NYC over a period of ten years or more. My life took many twists and turns and I evolved from a trained dancer and performer to a Shiatsu Therapist, Yoga Teacher, Colon Therapist and student of different Spiritually oriented Mind Body Therapies at the Esalen Institute and other healing centers. My associations are as follows: Member of the AOBTA for over 20 Years Member of the NCCAOM for approximately 12 years Member of the Yoga Teachers Alliance 500 hours for approximately 12 years Colon Therapist [ Wood's Institute ] Since 1998 Along with studying REIKI [ 2nd degree ] I was part of a School based on the work of Railey Macey, Dr. Robert Jaffe and Hands of Light. Railey Macey was my teacher. Thank you for your interest in my blog. notyourrawmoma "Wherever you are be the soul of that place". Rumi

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