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Last week I paid $7.00 to be part of a monthly telecast with EFT practitioner Rue Hass, M.A. The title of the class was Standing Up For Yourself. Within the first 15 minutes or so of the class an email was read by Ms. Hass from a participant that really struck me. The person wrote that for years they  thought  they were attracted to light and spaciousness, but felt trapped in darkness. However, after inner exploration through EFT, they realized that was not completely true. This person came to realize they felt safe in a cocoon of emotional darkness. An insightful and liberating epiphany that left me feeling a bit sad about my own time spent in the dark.

After observing the judgement and surrounding emotions that arose, the email author said they began to feel emotionally homeless. No longer comfortable in the dark, cozy cocoon that they new as home. Nor were they ready to be in the light filled space they had pined for. Through this awareness peace was found and moving forward has begun to take place.

I have been having similar experiences for many years. Not completely clear as to what was happening, I did have insights. I was aware of  always being at odds with my own living environment. When I was living in a dark apartment in NYC I complained of not enough light. Now living in the California desert I feel often agitated by the predominance of sunshine. On some level I knew there was a deeper truth.

I have distinct memories of my childhood and the ambivalence if felt toward sunlight in our home. The brightness would show up all the things that I did not want to see and feel. The darkness felt safe. This was mostly because the critical eye was so strong in my upbringing. The darkness provided a buffer where I could hide.

For more information about Rue Hass  link here. Her voice is nurturing. Her search for answers is kindly relentless.

As a postscript: If you look at my other blog posts you will understand why I am recommending The Unique Healing Program Donna Pessin at the end of this post.  Often, emotional issues do not clear easily. Inner work, such as EFT, mediation are great tools. If you want to tackle these patterns on a physiological level click here. Great program.



Author: notyourrawmama

At the age of ten I distinctly remember questioning the premise that illness just happens to us. The idea that every action has a reaction became a clear reason to doubt that I could not personally impact my own health. In my very early twenties I was introduced to the Macrobiotic Philosophy of Life and assisted a Macrobiotic Counselor in NYC over a period of ten years or more. My life took many twists and turns and I evolved from a trained dancer and performer to a Shiatsu Therapist, Yoga Teacher, Colon Therapist and student of different Spiritually oriented Mind Body Therapies at the Esalen Institute and other healing centers. My associations are as follows: Member of the AOBTA for over 20 Years Member of the NCCAOM for approximately 12 years Member of the Yoga Teachers Alliance 500 hours for approximately 12 years Colon Therapist [ Wood's Institute ] Since 1998 Along with studying REIKI [ 2nd degree ] I was part of a School based on the work of Railey Macey, Dr. Robert Jaffe and Hands of Light. Railey Macey was my teacher. Thank you for your interest in my blog. notyourrawmoma "Wherever you are be the soul of that place". Rumi


  1. Thank you for your wonderful comments! I am so glad that the teleclass was useful. I do these classes every month, and I welcome new participants.

    With my love and blessings, Rue

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