FORGIVE YOURSELF WITH RUE HASS 6/22/2012
Last week I paid $7.00 to be part of a monthly telecast with EFT practitioner Rue Hass, M.A. The title of the class was Standing Up For Yourself. Within the first 15 minutes or so of the class an email was read by Ms. Hass from a participant that really struck me. The person wrote that for years they thought they were attracted to light and spaciousness, but felt trapped in darkness. However, after inner exploration through EFT, they realized that was not completely true. This person came to realize they felt safe in a cocoon of emotional darkness. An insightful and liberating epiphany that left me feeling a bit sad about my own time spent in the dark.
After observing the judgement and surrounding emotions that arose, the email author said they began to feel emotionally homeless. No longer comfortable in the dark, cozy cocoon that they new as home. Nor were they ready to be in the light filled space they had pined for. Through this awareness peace was found and moving forward has begun to take place.
I have been having similar experiences for many years. Not completely clear as to what was happening, I did have insights. I was aware of always being at odds with my own living environment. When I was living in a dark apartment in NYC I complained of not enough light. Now living in the California desert I feel often agitated by the predominance of sunshine. On some level I knew there was a deeper truth.
I have distinct memories of my childhood and the ambivalence if felt toward sunlight in our home. The brightness would show up all the things that I did not want to see and feel. The darkness felt safe. This was mostly because the critical eye was so strong in my upbringing. The darkness provided a buffer where I could hide.
For more information about Rue Hass link here. Her voice is nurturing. Her search for answers is kindly relentless.
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