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HEALING A HERNIA ABSCESS FISTULA

ONE AWKWARD TITLE

I did not know what to entitle this post, a post about a subject that does not get a great deal of coverage. What has made it more difficult is that it is very difficult, if not impossible, to describe, or sum up, my experience in a sound bite. Healing for me has not been easy and definitely not a quick fix. I sure wish it had been. Right now the title is Hernia:Abscess Fistula Crisis. Not very catchy. Okay, so here I go…

WHEN THINGS COME UNLEASHED

Within the past year I have wanted to write another post about my Hernia / Abscess bursting, and the spread of inflammation that resulted. In that first  post I said that I would soon be writing in more detail, but I was simply not able to. I did not have the energy and mental clarity. I have truly needed all of my energy to heal, and do some daily tasks. Because I did not go to a hospital I came to the realization that people found it hard to understand the serious nature of what I had been through. Thinking back and putting my set of circumstances in context with the society I live in, I now understand that response from others. It has helped me see my experience through their eyes. This insight has made healing from a Chronic Illness a life lesson. That may sound a bit cliche, but fortunately for me it is true. Why do I say that? Because I am not a victim of my circumstances due to what I have learned, and that perspective has only empowered me. Still, it has not been easy.

FEELING POSITIVE VS EVERYTHING ELSE

Through my health crisis (aka being sick) I have come to recognize that I have to be there for myself. It is unfair to depend on others to be a support in a way that I am not sure anyone can. What I have come to fully understand is that each individual person is in charge of their own thoughts and actions. Believing in my ability to heal is up to me. Saying it and feeling it are two very different things. Accepting this responsibility had to happen in order to get well. This acceptance tells me that healing is happening on a deeper level. I had to give up needing the understanding and approval of others to be at peace with my decisions. The only approval necessary, in order to heal, is my own. This is something I have to remind myself of often.

Recognizing the support I do have has helped me heal. Fortunately, I often express gratitude to the two people who have been there for me, my husband and Jennifer Daniels, MD. That recognition of others sounds like a no brainer, but part of not feeling well can be focusing on what I do not have. When I feel pain, it takes an extra effort to feel positive, and grateful. I wish it came easier.

TICK – TOCK

For about 15 to 20 years I had a small lump in my right groin. I was told it was an Inguinal Hernia. A good part of that time the lump did not hurt, and it was hardly visible. Instinctively, I feel it has been there since I was in my late 20’s early 30’s. I deducted that the lump was a build up of bacteria, parasites, etcetera due to long term constipation. My hypothesis was that the accumulation of acidic waste weakened the membranes of my body and set me up for a “hernia”. A long history of constipation, in my experience, usually means a sluggish Liver/Gallbladder, and Cecum. All located on the right side of the body. This sluggishness is often reflected in the Transverse and Sigmoid Colon. So, my Hernia/ Abscess situation had been building for a very long time.

TOXINS NEED TO MOVE OUT IN A TIMELY WAY

A lack of movement in the Ascending Colon is evidence that the Liver/Gallbladder are sluggish. The Liver is partially located under the right ribcage. Liver/Gallbladder sluggishness makes it harder for waste matter to move up from the Cecum, located close the right groin. Among other factors, movement of waste matter is challenged by the Law of Gravity, a formidable opponent. In Chinese Medical Theory the Liver is an organ of expansion and upward movement. If the Liver is overwhelmed by a deluge of toxins, etcetera it will be reflected, at some point, by a sluggish response of all bodily functions. Chronic Bowel problems will be one major indicator that something is not quite right, and that includes Constipation and Irritable Bowel symptoms.

I do plan to write more about my Hernia/Abscess experience. I can say that it was very traumatic and messy. Blood, infectious material, and more. All I experienced has made it clear to me why Western Medicine employs surgery. Then the use of antibiotics and pain killers to deal with infection/inflammation spreading. This is not the road that I chose to take, but after my experience I can understand why it is taken by so many people. Surgeries usually entail a life long relationship with  doctors, medications and other surgeries. This is not the protocol that I felt would be good for me, so my choice has been a road less taken.

Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD was / is the healing force, along with my willfulness and my husband’s support, that got me through the healing of my Abscess, the containing of Inflammation, the painful aftermath, the road to healing.

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DEHYDRATED WASTE: A TICKING TIME BOMB

IT ALL STARTS VERY EARLY IN OUR LIVES

Where does all the toxic waste come from that people directly confront when healing holistically from a chronic illness? How does so much necrotic material get stored in the human body? To release it can be painful (acidic), and needs the help of solvents, water for hydration and specific elements to absorb residue and move it out. Intestinal Drawing Formula by Health Force is one example. Herbs, spices, charcoal (a component in the Intestinal Drawing Formula), vegetables and other forms of fiber are needed along with enemas and, in some cases, colonics. The amount of waste that can be dislodged is confusing for people, I strongly include myself here, and it can be very hard to understand where all this toxic matter is stored in the body. For people who have eaten a diet that is way above SAD (Standard American Diet), done fasting, colon cleanses. juicing, colonics, enemas, cleansing diets, the whole shebang, the amount of toxins that are resurrected can be highly confusing, disheartening, and disillusioning.

WATER? WHAT WATER?

I was born in the later half of the 1950’s. During my childhood I have no memory of there being any focus on drinking water at home, or at school. My mother did not have soda in the house, except for occasional ginger ale and tonic water. At school there was no water served at lunch, but there were a number of water fountains in the school. Beverages served in the cafeteria were plain and chocolate milk. In grammar school I was active as a competitive runner as well as a ballet student. Looking back it does seem strange that there was no memorable guidance, in my experience, to drink water for kids in general and especially for those involved in sports, or dance.

TRULY RUNNING ON EMPTY

As a child, I can remember restricting drinking liquids at track meets due to limited access to public toilets. It was the same as a dancer. I was part of a dance company during my teens that performed in Central Park and other outdoor venues. Bathroom access was not nearby, or at all convenient. The solution was to drink minimally. Soda was the beverage that was sold at the track meets.

CHOCK FULL O’NUTS

In terms of role models, my ballet teachers often drank coffee and smoked cigarettes during ballet class and rehearsals. That may be hard for people to fathom these days, but it is true. There were water fountains in most dance studios. Bottled water was not quite in vogue at the time. I did start seeing a nutritionist in my very late teens and at that time I do remember water being a part of the program. The focus of the nutrition movement back then was on supplements, high protein diets, and the elimination of refined carbohydrates. Low blood sugar was the buzz term. Eating animal protein with mega vitamin therapy was the popular approach. Remember the Atkins Diet?

BREAKING IT ALL DOWN: SOLVENTS

When I reflect on the years of not having proper hydration while involved in activities that involved great physical demands, the ramifications are daunting. I also have no memory of regular bowel movements as a kid. That impact was confirmed by feelings of been bloated in my early teens. I can remember constipation as a young teen. The impact of improper hydration can not be totally resolved by water alone. Solvents are needed to break down what has accumulated in the body due to dehydration. Click here for one solvent that I have found extremely useful. 

Toxic waste accumulates in the body due to not enough water daily, refined foods daily, childhood medications, inoculations, pesticides on fruits and vegetables, breathing polluted air, eating farm factory meats, and exposure to so much more that we do not knowingly consume. Without proper hydration these toxic elements remain. These toxins become part of the building blocks to our cells, blood, organs, etcetera. If there is not enough water being ingested an internal bomb is being built, and at some point begins ticking.

CONSTIPATION

There are so many other details that I could add here, but the point that I am wanting to make is that most people are not properly hydrated from the very beginning of their lives. Physically active or sendentary behaviors are dehydrating. Computers, and electronics of all kinds are dehydrating. Dehydration is a major cause of constipation. Waste is not coming out means that toxins that need to be eliminated are being stored all over the body. It is important for me to mention the toxic elements in the air and soil that were unregulated at the time I was growing up. This is, very sadly, still a problem. Exposure to chemicals and pesticides is a daily occurrence today, as well as in the past. At the least, enough fluids are needed to make an attempt to wash them out.

MAKING SENSE OUT OF IT ALL

Understanding my decades of not being properly hydrated is information that I have had to process slowly. The reality of it is hard to measure. In going through my healing process with Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD, I have had to confront the deeply potent residue of toxic matter that has been stored in my body. A painful, but needed facing of facts. Facts that I thought I understood, but obviously did not. The magnitude of this collection of toxins is far more powerful than I ever realized.

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OVERWHELMED AND MICROMANAGED: AN UNHEALTHY GUT

WHAT IS REALLY HAPPENING?

When I feel frustrated, overwhelmed and less able to focus and complete tasks, I become  anxious. Over the years I have come to learn that it is not the circumstances outside of me that are the real problem, but how I interpret them. I am talking about everyday stresses that should not put one on medications. My interpretation, from life long experience with myself and others, depends on the condition of my Immune System and my ability to keep the ecosystem of my body in balance. When healing from a Chronic Illness, hitting this balance can be very hard. It is truly a balancing act of cleaning out, rebuilding and finding some stability to function daily while participating in this healing process.

TAPPING FOR OVERWHELM

A few years ago I was part of an online course designed and presented by The Tapping Solution / Emotional Freedom Technique (Tapping). I noticed that feeling overwhelmed was an ongoing theme among the participants. One person that I specifically remember stated that she found Tapping [EFT] very helpful to alleviate her anxiety, but she still woke up feeling overwhelmed everyday. Anxiety was her daily alarm clock. She was grateful for the relief tapping brought her, but she was hoping for a more long term resolution, and Tapping had become more of a band-aid. Even though EFT is not my deep cure for overwhelm, I do experience EFT (Tapping) as helpful, and I will probably always use it for a myriad of different reasons.

Regular, daily feelings of overwhelm that appear without a trigger are signs of a greater biological stress. In a 10 week webinar with Oprah Winfrey, Eckart Tolle said that without pharmaceuticals the population of this earth would be more out of control than it already is. A scary thought. since there is so much discord today. Drugs and Pharmaceuticals are the next step, even for people who do not want to go down that road. Why? There are a few larger scope reason, but on a personal situation level,  it is what an individual may need to do in order to be functional, earn a living, not hurt themselves, or others. It is important to note that even with medications prevention of bad outcomes is not guaranteed.

YOU TAKE MY BREATH AWAY, BUT NOT IN A GOOD WAY

Obsessive attention to detail is becoming more and more common in our society. That behavior causes feelings of overwhelm for people on a daily basis. It is one trait that has deep, biological roots. One definition of a Weak Immune System is a person with an internal terrain that has an overload of Bacteria, Candida, Parasites, etcetera. A Weak Immune System is when these life forms have the upper hand and take over. When Parasites overrun us, instead of passing out in due time, they create symptoms that can exhibit themselves in behaviors that are often irksome to ourselves, and  others. In this state of imbalance, we are not at peace with ourselves, or those around us. Our annoyances and fears run us. Meds are, on paper, the quick fix.

MEDDLING

At some point Micromanaging ourselves, our environment, and others leads to feelings of overwhelm. These controlling traits often pass as normal. It is not so hard to surround ourselves with people who are more overwhelmed than we are. Surrounded by people who are more out of control than we are, or think we are,  it is easy to not realize or confront our own feelings of overwhelm.

NITPICKING

I had a client in NYC who possessed ample financial wealth and comfort. They randomly fired their home / work staff. No one was ever good enough. I, without a doubt, noticed that their personality would change from during the day to the evening. Confrontational and agitated behavior peaked at different times. The critical and difficult aspects of this person waxed and waned with the sun, moon and extreme temperatures, also known as exogenous factors.

INCONVENIENT SOLUTIONS

Over the years I have learned that when I feel overwhelmed by life my Immune System needs to be checked. Aside from making adjustments in my outer world it is necessary to adjust my biological ecosystem. The toxins that are dying off are  accumulating and not exiting fast enough. Steps need to be taken. Not a take two and call me in the morning solution,, but at least I know what to do, and it works.

Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD has helped me. Her website is worth looking into, whether you work with her or not.

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