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I know someone in their mid 70’a who has, over the years, become reclusive. He does not return most phone calls, no longer uses email, and does not reach out to people, except a necessary few. Others, who also know this person, have gone from feeling somewhat perplexed and rejected to surrendering acceptance. Well, most of the time anyway. I am not surprised at his behavior, and am sure that years of joint inflammation after a recovery from a pretty serious vascular illness, more than 10 years ago, has taken a huge toll. Still, none of these other people seem to fully understand why he has disappeared. Some, I can tell, still feel hurt and rejected. I am not a sage, but I am certain that the level of inflammation this man experiences is very high and is greatly due to his vascular illness many years ago. There is severe damage and inflammation to his entire body and that includes his brain. Hibernating is often an act of self preservation.


I have been on a quest to heal my gut for decades. I knew that any pain I was having with my hips had to be addressed through rectifying my digestive/gatrointestinal woes. That I am not alone is validated everyday by the strong presence of Pharmaceutical Company advertisements. Drugs such as Humira are advertised and prescribed for joint pain, gut inflammation, and skin problems. Medications / Drugs are not the route I have chosen to take because I know this is not a long term plan. There are serious consequences that are listed in the commercials as they show people doing all the things they have immense pain doing while crippled with inflammation, miserable with irritable bowels, or embarrassed by eczema, psoriasis and other skin conditions. One thing I am sure of is that the people who create the commercials for Humira (and drugs of all kinds ) know the mindset of pain very, very well.

My personal experience with pain has changed my understanding of other people, and their behavior. My empathy for others has increased immensely. I dd not understand the word inflammation until I personally had joint pain. Toxic, sluggish gut was more what I was feeling. Uncomfortable, annoyed and frustrated by an unhealthy gut eventually turned into joint pain. What was an injury that would not heal for many reasons, turned into chronic pain. This cataloging of the sequence of my own inflammation, both gut and joint, has been a circuitous root that has moved to some solid conclusions. Without these experiences I would have only understood inflammation and pain in theory.


I am experiencing a deep recovery from inflammation. It is not an simple sequence of personal events to write about. Much of what comes out of me through my bowel is pretty gross in nature. Sometimes it is hard to put into words, recollect and catalogue. The reason for some of this difficulty is due to the myriad of contaminants I have been exposed to over these many years, choices I have made, choices that were made for me. The voracity of the quality of dehydrated residue of contaminants that has been stored in tissues, organs, etcetera all over my body. The list of these substances are beyond my memory, or understanding. I am coming to the conclusion, that in the end, that most of the details are not that important. Finding a way to heal while being more functional as I live through this process is one of my main focuses.


Getting back to the person I wrote about in the beginning, I understand his unspoken need to disassociate from people. I have had to do this to some extent. I have needed every bit of energy to heal. That need is something I would not have understood if it were not for my own situation. It takes a great deal of energy to explain to people what is going on with me physically and emotionally. Many people, in trying to help, challenge my decisions, or add their opinion as to what they think I should do. It can be exhausting. It is hard for most people to understand that discomfort may be part of healing. The Western Medical paradigm is based, in theory, of doing no harm. It is documented that this is often not the outcome. I am not saying that is the intention. Treating pain in Western Medicine usually means masking it. This is a major problem today in the USA with opiate addiction, and death from opiate overdose being so prevalent. These rampant addictions speak strongly about the level of inflammation people are suffering from and their need to find relief. Empathy is not the answer, but it is a good start. I truly feel empathy for these people.

Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD has her own unique approach to healing. I have written a good number of posts explaining my experience with her. Here is a link to her website.






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What does it say about us, or more importantly what are we saying about ourselves, if our money is invested through a 401K, or in any other way, in companies that are not in line with our ethical, social, spiritual/religious beliefs? Do we have the right to complain about what is happening to our health, the health of our environment, our society, our government while invested in GMO based food manufactures, Big Pharma, Monsanto, farm factory meat industry, porn, violent video games, racist publications and anything else that is not inline with our core values? To me, it feels terribly hypocritical.

I personally know that it is not easy to divest from a 401k. If you have one, maybe you have never thought about where the money in your 401K / Investment Portfolio is directed. It may be possible that by my writing this post someone reading will start thinking about their investments differently. Hopefully, one may start questioning the criticism that is so easy to spew. Judgments about other people, their decisions, our government, governments of other countries, corporations and how determinations are made each day in all countries, homes and in the minds of individual human beings.


Living in the USA, I am divested from our stock market. Right before the last crash I was wanting to make a change. I was not comfortable with how Wall Street was operating and saw the crash handwriting on the wall. Tired of complaining about companies that I came to realize my portfolio was invested in, I decided to divest. I have never regretted removing my funds. I did pay a penalty. I was not an employee of a corporation, etcetera. I can say that if I was, at the very least, I would be putting pressure on that institution to look at whom they are invested in. There are Green Portfolios. At some point they will be competitive with the traditionally invested ones, maybe some are at this point. If you want to stay in the market and make some changes it is worth doing the research about Green Investments / Portfolios.


Do our investments impact our health? Whether we realize it or not, they most definitely do. Even if you feel you can not divest, what I say here may cause you to find out exactly where your money is invested, and if it jives with your beliefs. It is not an easy thing to face. Finding out may help you to feel more empathetic towards others and the decisions they make each day. That is how scrutinizing where my money was invested changed me for the better.

Nothing is black and white in this world. Whether we realize it or not, we vote each day with our dollar. It is effective.



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I am hoping this brief, thumb nail sketch history will help someone looking for support and clarity concerning their own health, or someone they know.

There are many factors that contribute to our health challenges. Certain things we may only be able to make suppositions about. What caused our Immune Systems to falter? One point that I feel is primary is to examine how we are all brainwashed into believing that consistently nagging, draining health complaints are normal. These issues range from acid reflux to hemorrhoids and constipation, debilitating menstrual cramps to athletes foot and psoriasis. They remain suppressed by medications, both over the counter and prescribed. Handled this way they are, without a doubt, a direct road to chronic health sicknesses and all that entails.


To begin with my parents both had childhood illnesses that impacted each of them physically and emotionally. My father had a subdural hematoma in his early teens. Treatment for that head injury to relieve the pressure on his brain, the drugs Halidon and Dilantin for a period of time, and who knows what else. My mother had Osteomyelitis beginning at about age 12. This lead to 25 or more hospitalizations, surgeries and exposure to a myriad of antibiotics up to the age of 33.  Their health histories impacted me in numerous ways. Psychologically with their unexplained behaviors that were very confusing. Behaviors that ranged from fearless to overly cautious. Their words and actions were helpful to me in ways, and not so helpful in others. Stressful approaches to living that deeply impacted every aspect of life. Decisions they made due to, I am guessing, making  up for time they felt they lost due to their childhood illnesses. Illnesses that were close brushes with death that must have been terrifying for them.


The house was located in an area that became more and more highly trafficked over the years. Our home was positioned on a corner in a suburb 30 minutes outside of New York City. When we moved there hardly any cars would pass by, but as time progressed it became harder and harder to get out of the driveway without it being a very stressful experience. What was originally stop signs on each corner became traffic lights. One night a car crashed into our front door. Why did my parents not move from there? A somewhat complicated issue, but put simply they felt they couldn’t. The reasons for that are very personal to what they thought they deserved. My father lived in that house for over 40 years. and my mother died there. Life experience I have had with myself and others tells me that a weak immune systems can cause people to make decisions out of fear. It can also play out as taking crazy risks that put themselves and others at risk until they just can’t anymore. This was the strange dichotomy I grew up under. My mother was over protective and my father, well, let’s just say he often lacked good judgement in everyday situations.


The house I grew up in had a big mold problem and, not surprisingly, was  notably cold and damp.

Growing up in the state of New Jersey was not a positive experience on many levels. Not to diss New Jersey, there are plenty of other places where environmental contaminants are record high for impacting the health of residents. New Jersey gets a bad rap on many levels and it is often deserved. I just saw a documentary about a Swim Team [name of the documentary] in New Jersey that is comprised of Autistic children. According to this documentary, 1 out of 23 children living in New Jersey have Autism. Within the past few years, here in the USA, Flint, Michigan has been in the news for lead contamination in water causing severe health problems in their residents. Evidently, it is becoming clearer that high levels of lead are present in tap water throughout the USA. This is due to a crumbling infrastructure. Degradation of building materials and poor decisions made concerning the quality of the materials originally used. Money before people.


I was exposed to mercury and other dental contaminants as a child. There was an unnecessary amount of drilling combined with the toxic materials used. Then, as an adult, having my mercury fillings removed without the proper steps taken during and after removal. I did not know there were precautions to be taken back then. They were removed by a dentist that did not have a Holistic practice. Just get them out was my attitude. Big mistake. This was done in 1989 -1990. I have never gone to a Holistic dentist that has recommended that I take any specific action to negate the bacteria that is released into my bloodstream after cleanings, removal of cavities, replacements of fillings. I have to remark that this includes Huggins trained dentists. Why is this true of the Holistic / Huggins dentists that I have known? I am really not sure why, however, I would choose a Huggins trained dentist over a Traditional Dentist for a myriad of reasons. Over the past 20 years I implemented my own antibiotic protocol when having any dental work. What is a Huggins Dentist?

Bacteria and other toxins released in dental cleanings put stress on the immune systems of people. Many with root canals, dental implants, etcetera are already experiencing this stress. Most people do not know how, or are  not capable of releasing these toxins through and already overloaded bowel, urinary tract system, or lungs.

Toxins are released through our breath and breathing is shallow at best for most people. Also, living in areas where the air is polluted does not encourage people to breathe. We unconsciously  protect ourselves by not breathing. On another level, it is worth noting how many of us are truly adverse to breathing, and never ask ourselves why. Conscious breathing is an invitation to be aware of the present moment and to feel and not be on automatic pilot 24/7.

Having an air cleaner in the house is something to consider when living in areas where air quality is suspect.


Bulimia, eating and vomiting, weakened every aspect of my health. This went on from age 16 to very early twenties, 23. A willful person, I was able to pull myself out of that behavior. This is a situation where the willfulness I learned from my parents worked for me in the best sense.


Exposure to sick pets and not understanding the potential impact on my health. I did not know how to protect myself better at the time. I do now.

Physical and Sexual contact with people who had poor health.

Eating sushi regularly for a couple of years.

Inhaling smoke in ballet studios from childhood to age 30.

Dehydration, not drinking enough water as a dancer and athlete.

My great grandfather and grandfather worked in the steel mills in Chicago and Pittsburgh. My dad worked for US Steel as a teenager before going to college. I am sure this exposure to heavy metals had to effect the family line.

I hope my sharing this information is helpful. There have been other factors that I did not cover here, or I am not fully aware of. My personal experience with Root Canals is something I will write about in the future.

Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD is the person that has helped me the most with finding strategies for healing. Some of her approaches challenged my past knowledge, and experiences. I am grateful that I opened my mind and followed her lead.

Thank you for reading.







I saw an interview with Ina Garten / The Barefoot Contessa this past summer on PBS  NewsHour here in the USA. I was surprised to hear her say that she has no professional training as a chef, and she still finds cooking very difficult. With all that going on, Ina Garten took a chance that there was an audience of people like her. Her story made sense to me on the subject of inflammation. In my case, there must be more than just a few people like me out there. People who have been cleansing the bejesus out of themselves and not fully recovering their health. Many others who hear the word inflammation and do not fully understand it is a red flag of developing chronic illness.

As obvious as it may be for a few, the majority of people do not understand that long term toxicity, due to a toxic bowel, can lead to inflammation in other parts of the body.


In order too feel better and keep our weight in check we often end up eating less variety, less fat and less starches of all kinds. Drinking coffee for a quick pick me up and wine, alcohol or weed to relax. Restricting or stopping the daily intake of foods like sugar and other refined carbohydrates makes sense. We would all be healthier without refined foods, but we need unrefined fats and unrefined carbs to live. Also, eating the same restricted diet long term does not heal poor health conditions. Eating in an imbalanced way eventually makes poor digestion and a weakened immune system worse, or not much better. Cleansing the body by absorbing toxins with clay, charcoal and other similar substances without replacing the natural nutrients and  buffers of fat and minerals leads to more inflammation and pain down the line. It is important to not that an unintentional depletion of body fat and bone due to the cleansing out of an over abundance of candida, heavy metals and other toxic substances is what often ends up happening.


Not that lone I ago did not understand how to balance being too lean with cleansing the body. Most of my life I was not a person who anyone would call thin or frail looking.  I was more athletic in appearance with a moderate amount of body fat. My biggest health complaint was poor digestion and a sluggish gut. I understood how the build up of toxic waste in the body hammered my immune system. I did not specifically connect inflammation with toxicity.  INFLAMMATION was a word I became desensitized to due to  constant use in commercials for products such as Tylenol and Advil. I did not directly connect a sluggish digestive system with inflammation in other parts of my body because I had yet to experience chronic joint pain. I have come to feel that inflammation is a term used with limited understanding that keeps people on the road to buffering pain away with over the counter and prescribed medications. Not a long term plan. It is a plan that leads to chronic illness and, in many cases, surgical intervention.


Inflammation has many faces: allergies, menstrual cramps. headaches, migraines, tooth ache, sinus infections, joint pain, acne, water retention, inability to loose weight, indigestion, psoriasis, acid reflux, jock itch, long term constipation / diarrhea,  vaginal itch, mood swings, insomnia, worrying, etcetera. The list is long. Inflammation gone unchecked builds the fertile ground for developing chronic illness and substance addictions of all kinds. Thus begins the prescribed and non-prescribed intake of all different kinds of medications and recreational drugs.

I don’t think of non-prescription drugs like heroine and crystal meth as recreational drugs. They are often used to do the job of prescribed opioids. People using these “recreational’ drugs are self medicating and have to be in serious physical and emotional pain.


It is important to have a plan to cleanse and rebuild. Traditional Western Medicine does not have a workable plan to heal chronic pain without drug dependency. It is accepted by Traditional Western Medicine that the body is in a constant state of agitation with no long term resolution. Pain Management is the medically accepted term used today for an alternative plan. I do believe that Chronic Pain can be eradicated. It takes time, and every situation is different, but cellular  healing is possible.


On a another level of observation, one that I do believe can not go unspoken, this wide spread agitated and inflamed state of  health is reflected in our personal, social and  political relationships around the world.

I have found a path to healing chronic inflammation with Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD. 


As a postscript: I wanted to say that Dr. Daniels has many strategies to help her patients manage pain while in the healing process.


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This blog post is based on my personal and self observations. It is not, in any way, a generalization about phobias or fears.


In 1997 I was on a British Airways flight returning home from London to New York City. About an hour or more into the flight one of the engines blew out and we returned to London to land, and later board another plane. I was told by other passengers, who flew much more regularly than I, not to be afraid. They all had been through this before and it was not a life threatening situation. I was definitely unnerved by it and so were others on the flight. We landed safely, and the thing I remember most was the inconvenience of having my travel plans delayed, etcetera.

Okay, so I was not affected by the incident in terms of future flights, as there were several after that one. It was not until I had stronger symptoms of gut and joint inflammation that certain fearful thoughts about flying started to enter my mind. One being the idea of being suspended in mid – air in a plane and how the risks involved. I never gave that any thought or worry before. These fears began about 8 years later. These fears came up while taking off and being on the plane. Very inconvenient, but did not keep me from flying.


As I continued to pursue cleansing and rebuilding my body, with not much improvement with my gut or hip joints, I became more fearful about driving. I still drove in and out of New York City on very busy thoroughfares, but I founded it quite stressful. I rode my bike to the bike paths on on side streets to get to clients and my office down in the area of Chelsea. All this was done with feelings and fears that I faced by breathing, being aware and cautious, EFT tapping, Qi Gong.

Chinese and Ayurvedic Medicine understands how trauma and fear impact our kidneys and adrenals, and how the weakness of these organs can contribute to feeling more fearful. Here is a short blog post that I think addresses this in a highly relatable way.

Over the years I have noticed peaks and valleys with these fears. In fact most recently, during my most challenging times, I was able to drive for 9 hours, with a few pit stops, when we moved from the desert of California up to an ocean community on the Central Coast. I was nervous, but able to do it despite the physical discomfort, the high speed I needed to maintain, concerns with other drivers, huge trucks. I hope I am painting a picture that people can relate to.

There is more I could say, but for now I hope this may help someone who is experiencing phobias and fears. I know there are severe traumas that effect people that are far, far greater than what I shared. Being in the armed forces, emotional abuse, physical abuse, the list is long and highly personal. I lived in NYC on 9/11/2001. After that, I had fears of using the subway and people leaving for the day and not returning home. What I am trying to relay here is that traumas of all kinds can chip away at our immune systems and vice versa.

For those reading who can relate, please keep up the good fight and know you are not alone. If you are trying to heal without the use of anti-anxiety medications I am confident it is possible, even though that was not my particular experience. I can understand the fears and worries of giving medications up. Weaning off of meds  most often needs the help of an experienced healer. One who is not answering to a pharmaceutical rep and their network of colleagues. These pressures on physicians keep many doctors on a tight leash, worried about the backlash that comes with going rogue.

Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD is one of those healers that has taken the risk of stepping outside the professional medical boundaries that I described above. If you have found someone similar, please let me know. I would be glad to investigate and share that information here. The person does not need to be a medical doctor.



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After my father died, about 6 years ago, I knew I needed to confront my sadness. I was fortunate to have my husband, but I needed to sort through and unload my feelings often, and in a more therapeutic way.  I wanted to unburden myself out loud and have a listener. With friends the glitch was that I did not want to hear the words that gave me zero solace. Sorry for your loss, and I am so sorry to hear that, rang hollow to me and provided no resolution. These were phrases that left me feeling more alone. Yes, I do understand that death is uncomfortable for people, and certain routine expressions fill a need. Words that are  easily accessed. They can be used without feeling the heart wrenching pain that accompanies death. So, I decided to talk to myself.


I was living in a new part of the US and did not want to start a relationship with a psychotherapist, a rebirther, shaman, etcetera. I also did not find traditional psychotherapy direct enough. Been there, done that. I also needed more relief than one session a week could provide.  I needed to help myself. So, after a number years of using Emotional Freedom Technique I knew I had enough tools to heal, and this time on my own terms. I had this clear sense that I could give myself the support and daily venting I needed. I had a few years of ezperiencing Emotional Freedom Technique in private sessions with a couple of practitioners. Also, some good information from listening to  The World Tapping Summit produced by The Tapping Solution.


We were renting a house in Palm Springs, California with two large walk in closets, one of which we were not using. I would go into that one, very large, empty closet with a chair and a box of tissues and begin to talk to my dad and cry. I used the Tapping Points from Emotional Freedom Technique while I talked either out loud or silently. It was one of the most cathartic and healing experiences of my life up to that point. EFT was there for me when I needed it, it was free, and it did not have to end in the usual 55 minutes of most traditional therapy sessions. Those tapping / venting sessions were very revealing. I learned more about myself and my feelings concerning my father, family, and life than I ever thought possible. Soon I brought in another chair and sat it across from me. I would imagine that my father, mother, or whomever else I wanted to talk to was sitting across from me. The results were highly unburdening. They were filled with many emotions, primarily the sad relief of letting go of all that sadness. Forgiveness and deeper understanding of myself and others was my gift each day. Those sessions helped me move on.


For people who are willing to try to access feelings of sadness, loss, confusion, etcetera that arise when healing from illness, Emotional Freedom Technique and Faster EFT can be extremely helpful. From my own recent experience, EFT can be made more effective by using The 5 Second Rule that Mel Robbins has created. Her audiobook is available, as of right now, on Youtube. If you like audiobooks, I think it is worth the investment, or purchasing the book itself.


When we release toxic matter that has been stored in the body for decades there are emotions that are connected with those toxins. We often self medicate with food, sugar, drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, television, video games, shopping, etcetera to avoid confronting uncomfortable feelings. As children we learn from adults how to shove our pain away with these behaviors and substances. This is a very short handed explanation  as to why people suffer so much when they “clean house”. We crave the things that shielded us from the emotional pain, and those cravings return with a vengeance when we remove them. It is called withdrawal, and it can bite.




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My first hand experience is that most of us do not fully understand the great significance of a healthy, or unhealthy bowel. How it effects our all over health is not something we are guided to question. Also, there is a deep lack of understanding of the depths of what our bodies need to eliminate in order to avoid chronic illness. My personal understanding of my own body, in this very specific way, has impacted my life greatly. Lessons learned that have left me changed both physically and emotionally. Just to be clear, I am not only talking about the relief most every person feels after a “good dump”. DUMP, another grubby sounding word that has four letters. Just the sound of it says it all.


One evening, several years ago, I was watching a late night television show that was followed by repeats of a USA sitcom called Two and a Half Men. I had never seen the show before and was surprised at how it got me to laugh out loud. Laughing is something I love to do and I don’t do enough of it. I was surprised how funny a major  network show could be. I just connect most mainstream / network TV with laugh tracks. Anyway, when something makes me laugh I don’t care what the source is. Finding Two and a Half Men was a good thing on many levels. Over the next few months, I recorded and watched the series. At that point the show had been on the air for about 9 years. it ran for 12.


During my obsession with Two and a Half Men I saw a segment where the child on the show (Jake), who is usually an energetic spitfire, becomes sluggish and aloof. The adults can not figure out what is wrong. Why is Jake so down? Is it a school problem, neglect of his divorced mom and dad, his naughty Uncle Charlie’s influence? His mom and dad take him to a shrink. and the shrink seems to need more help than Jake does. Here is an excerpt.


In the end the wise and dry witted housekeeper slips the kid a good dose of prune juice before bedtime. The next morning Jake’s spirits are lifted and the kid is propelling himself around the house like a rocket ship. The prune juice worked wonders. Just one good dump, maybe two, and the kid had a new lease on life.


Well, I have needed more than prune juice to feel better, but I resonated with the  shows message. I have found such deep and high lows with the removal of some nasty, old things coming out of my body over the past decades. It has become more profound while following the directions of  Jennifer Daniels, MD. Dr. Daniels approach is a unique construct of her personal experience and with patients. Her knowledge has most definitely furthered my understanding of cleansing and rebuilding my body. It is truly a balancing act. Her knowledge has helped me get to necrotic material that I was not able  to with decades of intermittent fasting, liver/gallbladder flushes, cleansing programs, colonics, etcetera. Working with Dr. Daniels has been a deep education. As I have learned from her, I also am learning from my own self observation. The emotional highs and lows, that occur as waste is dredged up and escorted out of my body. has become less and less, and shorter lived.  I can most definitely correlate emotional ups and downs with what comes out in “the bowl”, or what doesn’t.

Prune juice may be a rather simplistic solution to depression and constipation, but there is truth in the message. Of major importance is that laughing is important medicine. Laughter is an extremely necessary and valuable companion to have when healing the body, mind and soul. The good news is that things do get easier. Stay the course.