This blog post is based on my personal and self observations. It is not, in any way, a generalization about phobias or fears.
In 1997 I was on a British Airways flight returning home from London to New York City. About an hour or more into the flight one of the engines blew out and we returned to London to land, and later board another plane. I was told by other passengers, who flew much more regularly than I, not to be afraid. They all had been through this before and it was not a life threatening situation. I was definitely unnerved by it and so were others on the flight. We landed safely, and the thing I remember most was the inconvenience of having my travel plans delayed, etcetera.
Okay, so I was not affected by the incident in terms of future flights, as there were several after that one. It was not until I had stronger symptoms of gut and joint inflammation that certain fearful thoughts about flying started to enter my mind. One being the idea of being suspended in mid – air in a plane and how the risks involved. I never gave that any thought or worry before. These fears began about 8 years later. These fears came up while taking off and being on the plane. Very inconvenient, but did not keep me from flying.
FOUR WHEEL FEAR
As I continued to pursue cleansing and rebuilding my body, with not much improvement with my gut or hip joints, I became more fearful about driving. I still drove in and out of New York City on very busy thoroughfares, but I founded it quite stressful. I rode my bike to the bike paths on on side streets to get to clients and my office down in the area of Chelsea. All this was done with feelings and fears that I faced by breathing, being aware and cautious, EFT tapping, Qi Gong.
Chinese and Ayurvedic Medicine understands how trauma and fear impact our kidneys and adrenals, and how the weakness of these organs can contribute to feeling more fearful. Here is a short blog post that I think addresses this in a highly relatable way.
Over the years I have noticed peaks and valleys with these fears. In fact most recently, during my most challenging times, I was able to drive for 9 hours, with a few pit stops, when we moved from the desert of California up to an ocean community on the Central Coast. I was nervous, but able to do it despite the physical discomfort, the high speed I needed to maintain, concerns with other drivers, huge trucks. I hope I am painting a picture that people can relate to.
There is more I could say, but for now I hope this may help someone who is experiencing phobias and fears. I know there are severe traumas that effect people that are far, far greater than what I shared. Being in the armed forces, emotional abuse, physical abuse, the list is long and highly personal. I lived in NYC on 9/11/2001. After that, I had fears of using the subway and people leaving for the day and not returning home. What I am trying to relay here is that traumas of all kinds can chip away at our immune systems and vice versa.
For those reading who can relate, please keep up the good fight and know you are not alone. If you are trying to heal without the use of anti-anxiety medications I am confident it is possible, even though that was not my particular experience. I can understand the fears and worries of giving medications up. Weaning off of meds most often needs the help of an experienced healer. One who is not answering to a pharmaceutical rep and their network of colleagues. These pressures on physicians keep many doctors on a tight leash, worried about the backlash that comes with going rogue.
Dr. Jennifer Daniels, MD is one of those healers that has taken the risk of stepping outside the professional medical boundaries that I described above. If you have found someone similar, please let me know. I would be glad to investigate and share that information here. The person does not need to be a medical doctor.